Jagged Edges

.016.

Sat, 21 Jun 2008 03:11:17 GMT

[Backdated to Wednesday, June 18]

Ah shit. I'm coming home.

Yeah, I know, go ahead and laugh at me Saber... but I have a perfectly reasonable explanation for the bandage I'll be sporting for the next few weeks.

So, I was spending the night out training with my real sword, and I had done everything right for the camp. I had the fire well contained, the food up in one of those hanging things the camping guide taught me how to do, and I even had my tent up... that still didn't stop that stupid bear from coming.

Yeah, the same one as last time... how the hell was I supposed to know it was a cub? The thing was freaking huge in my opinion. Nasty as hell too.

Mama was nastier.

...

Yeeeaaaaah... so... its not too smart to whack a cub with the flat of a sword right in front of mama on steroids... Luckily, I managed to dodge back, knock her out, and get my ass to a hospital... but mama has freaking sharp claws.

Its nothing too bad, just a shallow scratch, a few stitches, and one hell of a scar on my chest to look forward to.

But, it did end my camping/training trip a few days early.

On another note, I've been doing some thinking and... Kai... I... have to talk to you.

And Sora?

Just forget about what happened. ~~Please...~~ Really, just... forget about it. I was being stupid, and after thinking about everything... just... forget about it.

Er... yeah...

I'm back?

.015.

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 00:54:12 GMT

Well, training in the mountains is going well. I miss the beach, and hate the cold, but overall its not that bad.

Heh, I knocked a bear out yesterday. It scared the crap out of me, just kinda appeared out of the bushes all pissed off and stuff.

I'm down in the nearest town for some supplies thus the access to the computer, but I think I'll stay up here for another week or so.

Since I know some of you ~~Kairi~~ will probably want to bother me, ask Saber-san for the address and directions. Honestly, I could use someone to talk to for a day. I do not want to turn into a hermit.

.014.

Thu, 05 Jun 2008 05:38:13 GMT

I'm going to the mountains for a while. ~~To clear my head and think, as well as for training purposes~~

If anyone really needs me, have fun hiking into the woods and attempting to find the cabin. ~~No, seriously, just ask Saber, she'll give you directions~~

Saber-san, when can I come by and pick up the keys from you? And thanks again for the idea/place to stay.

.013.

Fri, 30 May 2008 22:32:50 GMT

~~Completely disregarding the shit happening in my life right now, things are actually pretty good~~

Marluxia. If I ever see you around town, I will kill you.

[Blocked to pro-ban ~~He got someone to actually help him with it this time~~]
I got my bass.

I finally got my goddamned bass!

Its old (well, relatively so, its from the early 1900s) and slightly beat up looking, but it plays like a bat out of hell. It actually makes me want to learn classical music.

Band rehearsal either tonight or tomorrow guys, I'm working on renting a stage in a club with the remainder of my money ~~which isn't much now~~
[End of blocked post]

OOC EDIT: I'll get the actual post of the rehearsal up tomorrow. Its freaking 1 AM and my history project still isn't done T-T But I actually am getting this thread up xD ~~finaly~~

.012.

Wed, 28 May 2008 01:09:12 GMT

Oh hey! I can breathe again!

I'm now officially... CURED!

[Private]
Its amazing how being sick can completely make me forget about being awkward around Kai.

I mean, she likes me. And... I still don't know how I feel about her. I mean, she's my friend, and even though I kinda ditched her for a year, and even though I'm still kinda messed up from all that shit that happened then, she completely accepts me. I really should just admit that I love her and start up a completely normal relationship with her.

After all, its not like Sora would ever return my feelings.

As girly as he is, the kid's straighter than ruler.

Ah shit... why does life have to be so goddamn difficult?
[End Private]

Sora, Kairi... what's our place's policy on pets?

Becaaaaauuuuuseeee... I want a cat. Don't ask me why, but... I want a cat.

Also, this place is annoying me. I've been stuck inside for a week, staring at the same old walls and ceilings and bleh. Its boring. Makes me want to be a... decorator or something. Can I like, paint the walls without you guys freaking? It just needs to be different.

Asch, Mahiru... Axel... want to get together some time this week and start practicing? ~~Although, I heard on the grapevine that Asch was in the hospital again?~~

And, speaking of being stuck inside for a week, I need to get out of here, anyone up for some "bonding time" or whatever? I'm so goddamned bored

.011.

Mon, 19 May 2008 22:53:06 GMT

Your concern for me is touching guys, really.

Kairi: ~~More cough syrup, stat!~~ ...Thanks for the tea?

Sora: Do your goddamn freaking work! ... just... tell me what you actually do first? I'm kinda curious...

Saber: I'm fine you really don't have to come over... really >.<;;

Asch: ... Be afraid, be very afraid... I will hunt you down and give you this goddamned thing

Luxord: ...So, about that remedy?

In short, stop BABYING me! >.< I'm honestly perfectly fine, just give me a day and I'll be back to whacking at practice dummies, annoying my boss, and making fun of Sora's ~~ridiculously gelled spiky~~hair. Just... don't kill me with overdoses of cough syrup in the meantime? ...Please?

.010.

Sun, 18 May 2008 02:45:12 GMT

Ugh... I managed to get sick... in the summer...

And I'm being babied by mama-Kairi...

Someone save me?

.009.

Wed, 14 May 2008 17:15:38 GMT

In short:
Life sucks.

[Blocked to Kairi]
Shit... what the hell am I supposed to do? Kai's gonna be pissed as hell at me for a while...

Fuck.

Sora... can you... talk to her for me? Make sure she's okay? I think I'll get punched if I try to approach her right now. ~~not that Kairi's punches hurt, or anything, I'm just saying~~
[/blocked to Kairi]

I managed to miss mother's day again. Heh. Somehow I've managed to completely forget about that holiday for the past two years. Serves the bitch right.

[Blocked to Kairi and Sora]
Living with Kai and Sora is getting weird. I don't... think I can do it any longer. Its not like I'm running away again or anything. Its just... things are awkward right now, what with Kai confessing to me and... well... Sora being Sora. I just don't know how long I can take it without literally exploding.

Damn... I need to go beat the crap out of something now.
[/blocked]

Oh, and Axel. I hate you.

[blocked to pro-ban]
DAMNIT! I missed the rally >.< Shit, sorry guys, I think my brain exploded that night.

like, honestly, it just... exploded... I can't even remember anything. Maybe someone slipped me something? That would make at least a little sense
[/blocked]

.008.

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 22:29:45 GMT

[Not viewable to Pro-ban]

First of all: About a year ago, I was arrested for playing bass in a club. The ringer? I never played it outside of my room. This was right after the music ban took a violent turn, and the fact that there was a light-haired guy playing bass in some club who just happened to escape from the police earlier that week was aparently enough to incriminate me... and have me looking at six months. Of course, I didn't feel like going to jail for any amount of time, so... using methods I'm not sharing, I escaped.

Just thought my band would like to know that. I think the police could care less about me, but... you can never be to careful, right?

[very easily hackable]
Funny thing is, and I'm sorry I never told you this Sora, Kairi... but my mom was the one who got me arrested.

[Private to Sora and Kairi]
I want to leave again.

I was stopping in at a coffee shop today to get something to snack on and... I saw my mom. If I kept walking, kept my head down, everything would have been fine... but... I just stared... and the damn lady with my coffee called my name and...

Mom saw me, she just looked up and saw me, said my name and...

I panicked, I ran, and now I want to disappear again. I want to just... fade away or something... I didn't want to be reminded of... everythng, I thought I'd run far and long enough.

This'll pass, I know it will... this ache to get away, to fade back intot he nameless faces parading around the streets and forgetting everything, but...

In the meantime, stop me. If I look like I'm going ot leave, if I pull away again just... stop me. Please. Just, in these next few days, stop me from leaving again. I don't think I'd come back this time.

.007.

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 05:51:53 GMT

No... nonononononono...

- I _____ Riku.
- Riku is _____.
- Riku likes to ______.
- I want to _____ Riku.
- Riku can ______.
- Someday Riku will ______.
- Riku reminds me of ______.
- Without Riku, it will be _____.
- Right now, I bet Riku is thinking about _____.
- Riku makes me want to _______.
- If I could spend the day with Riku, I'd _____.
- Riku is made of _______.
- If I could be Riku for a day, I'd ______.
- Riku's alter-ego is __________.
- I want to give Riku ______.

Ah... shit... whatever, I give up... it was coming anyway, so I figured I may as well get the damn meme over with

.006.

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 01:08:29 GMT

[not viewable to pro-ban]

We need to get a rehearsal going.

I don't know when, or where, or how, but we need to rehearse. Maybe we can borrow your dojo for a bit, Saber? Either way, we need to actually see if we can work together long enough to actually hold a gig.

Speaking of which, I've been checking out some places, and there are a couple of underground nightclubs/bars I've heard of that may be looking for an act.

As far as names go the only one that's coming to mind is Dysfunction ~~so not Axel-inspired~~ so unless you want it defaulted to that, I need some suggestions.

Yeah... my creativity extends to writing and arranging music only. Naming things is not my forte.

[semi-hackable, just not to Sora]
FUCK!

Why the flying FUCK am I dwelling on what Axel's been telling me?! Why am I even listening to what Axel's been telling me?!

I am not in the closet, and I do not have a thing for my best friend.

End.
Of.
Fucking.
Story.

... God dammit...

.005.

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 05:04:21 GMT

[not viewable to pro-ban people]

So, I missed a year of school. And I think the police don't give a crap about me any more I even had a nice little chat with one about skateboarding on the sidewalk yesterday and got a freaking fine so... should I go back to school?

On the one hand there's education, a chance to get into the University, and the outcome of a steady, legal job.

On the other is remaining under the radar, not having to actually pay for my education, but putting all my cards on playing bass and composing for a living.

Since I missed a year of school, I'd be in my last year of High School, not University, which would give me a year to save up for admission fees, but even then... school's freaking expensive... and I'm not sure I really want to go... but... eh, I have to actually start being realistic about my future.

Damn... things were so much easier when I was only worried about finding a reasonable hotel room to crash in for the night...

.004. Once again, not viewable to Pro-Ban people

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 01:56:56 GMT

Hm, band's starting to come together, ne?

So far we have...

Vocals: Mahiru
Guitar: Asch
Bass: me
Drums: Axel

And I suppose invites could go out to Sora and whoever he recommends ~~just... nothing too crazy?~~

Oh, and Demyx, I'm supposed to talk to you? And drag Sora along with me? ~~Zexion pointed me in your direction, so I don't really know...~~

Any name recommendations? I'm pretty sure Axel would reject anything I come up with, so I'm not even gonna bother.

.003. Not viewable to pro-ban peoples

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 02:00:23 GMT

I'm bored.

...

And I need a band. Badly.

Anyone looking for a bassist?

Ah, yeah, by the way, inspiration hasn't been too good lately, so I haven't written anything... well... nothing good anyway.

Also looking to buy a stand-up bass... they're kind of harder to smuggle in... but god... I need to get my hands on one. Just, nothing too fancy, can't really afford much right now.

.002.

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 03:38:32 GMT

... and people think I can't pull an April Fools joke...

All right, its bad, I get it... but hey, it made me smirk for a minute.

Eh, still debating over staying at your guys' instead of hotels and stuff... only want to ask you guys something first.

You don't mind if I bring my bass right? And play? I swear, you won't be able to hear it across the room let alone another apartment.

.001. Why am I failing at everything?

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 01:26:54 GMT

(ooc/ Sora-mun~ should we keep the post where Riku and Sora met at the library? Or do you want to play out the meeting again?)

So, how is it that I manage to be found so easily? I mean, I go out without dying or covering my hair, and five minutes later: BAM! Sora finds me at the library.

Am I that bad at keeping to the shadows... or is it that I want to get caught?

On a side note, even having three jobs a day gets boring after a while... and I'm pretty damn sick of that old lady at the restaurant yelling at me about how to carry the plates without having the food roll around.

Anyone know of a good place to work? God knows I need a change of scenery.